|Her body free from gravity,|
her mind free from thought!
|No mind as I pull a new personal record, 300lbs.|
As humans there is no greater joy than being completely and totally present. We seek it out through athletics, performance art, creativity, intimacy, physical connection (what do you thing an orgasm is?), and meditation. What we fall to realize is that the present moment is always available. It is easy to get there through the activities like those just listed, However it’s much more difficult to experience it in the everyday tasks of life. Our thoughts, our emotions and our egos seem to stand in the way. With intention and practice the present moment is the very thing that moves the distractions out of our way. In the present moment, all things are possible, in the present we perform (no matter the stage) at our greatest capacity.
|Just me, the #135 stone and the moment.|
(or just strength training/intesity in general!)
" There is no need to search; achievement leads to nowhere. It makes no difference at all, so just be happy NOW! Love is the only reality of the world, it is all ONE, you see. And the only laws are paradox, humor, and change. There is no problem, never was, and never will be. Release your struggle, let go of your mind, throw away your concerns, and relax into the world. No need to resist life; just do your BEST. Open your eyes and see that you are far more than you imagine. You are the world, you are the universe; you are yourself and everyone else, too! It's all the marvelous Play of God. WAKE UP, REGAIN YOUR HUMOR. DONT WORRY, YOU ARE ALREADY FREE"
On Sunday morning I woke up without my alarm, too nervous and excited to sleep. In a couple hours I’d be competing for the first time in my life. I’d be competing in events that showcase my body’s abilities. Most of my experiences having to showcase my bodies’ abilities have been horrible. All the gym classes, presidential fitness challenges, not being to jump to sit on a wall with the rest of my friends, turning down invites to places that involved a lot of walking, the list of shame is long. But this weekend I intentionally put my body on stage, competing in the novice division at The Bad Ass Bitch Invitational Strongwoman Competition.
I decided I was going to put into my performance all the energy I never was able to, or too embarrassed to when I came to my body through the years. The nervousness I felt was right in line with how I felt before my drivers test, getting married and giving birth. Deciding to do this competition was SCAREY, and it got more nerve racking the closer it came. I new I’d get through just fine, but still very nervous. I know from experience that the best things in my life come with some apprehension.