4/04 (pre-gastric bypass) - 420lbs- Size 32
4/06- (post-gastric bypass) - 260lbs- Size 22
7/31/09- 322.5lbs- Size 26
8/28/09- 313lbs (just before starting CrossFit)
12/3/09- 286lbs- Size 22
It is of the upmost importance to me that my focus and motivation is not on these numbers associated with my weight or my pants size. However, I am going to claim the fact that these numbers have significance. They validate my “Radical Hateloss.” They prove that choosing the present moment and self-love in the spiritual realm, leads to reward in the physical realm. Not only do they lead to physical results, but for the first time I met these kinds of results without EFFORT. It’s not that I am not doing work; it takes work to remain conscious and explore my emotions without escaping them. However when it comes to eating and exercise, I don’t feel deprived and it doesn’t feel hard. I ENJOY food. I ENJOY working out. WOW! What a miracle the present moment is.
I’d like to point one thing out about the numbers that validate why the focus on the scale can be counter productive. If you notice I am at the same pants size at 286lbs, that I was at 260lbs. I’d venture to say I’m I full size 22 now and back then I was on the lower end of the size, however I know that through CrossFit I have gained muscle I have never had before (accounting for the difference.) When I look in the mirror in only my underwear I can't help but notice the changing shape of my body. My body never looked as good as it does today. I have to say I really love CrossFit….its given my strength in confidence in my body that has translated into all areas of my life. Shout out to the CrossFit KoP…the coaches and the community. Thank You!
My question to you. What rewards would be yours if you embraced each moment? What would happen if you choose love over fear?
What would a post like this be, without some before (taken this summer) and after pictures (taken today). :-)
Emancipate yourself from mental slavery, none but ourselves can free our minds.
My goal continues to be to embrance the present moment in my life. I look forward to the opportunities & rewards that will be made available as I do this more and more in my life.