Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Be the Change, You Want to See in the World

On Friday, My husband and I watched CNN’s Heroes. They awarded ten individual from around the world for humanitarian works of all kinds. I cried through all their stories, truly inspired by their ability to use their passion to help change the world. I kept thinking about my passion and wondering how I can use it to help other people. I thought about the all the girls out there, that are like me when I was a child. All the girls struggling with a negative body image or using food to escape from their emotional pain. I thought about myself and wonder what could someone have done back then, that could have changed my life?

I really don’t know the answer to that question. Maybe the answer is, there is nothing that someone could have done to change my life. Maybe I needed to live my life and have these experiences to get me to the place I am at today. But maybe if someone had given me the permission to enjoy being physical with my body, I would have been doing that all these years instead of starting at 29 (with CrossFit). Maybe if someone helped me understand emotional eating, I would have looked at food differently. Maybe if someone had taught me to face my emotions in the present moment, I would have had the tools to deal with them. Maybe if someone had helped me to identify with my highest self, instead of the negative voices in my head (Mr. Gremlin!), I’d have been listening to the better voice all these years. Maybe if someone, had coached my parents on how they affected my behavior, would have understood I needed their support from a place of love, not fear.


There is a possibility that someday I will be able to lead a girl or young woman to start loving and accepting them self. For now, however I can’t stop thinking about the famous quote from Gandhi, “Be the change you want to see in the world.” What is clear to me is that, the place to start continues to be me. It would be easy for me to jump right in and focus on those outside myself. I will instead continue to work on my radical hateloss, because it’s a work in progress. Although I have made an important shift in my personal consciousness, which I believe is irreversible; there is more work to be done (almost 30yrs was a long time to establish negative beliefs and behaviors). I will continue “my work” and trust that the universe will point me in the right direction when the time is right to expand my passion in someway.

What changes do you want to see in others? In the world?  How can you make those changes in a deeper level in your self, in your own life?

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Quote:
I'm Starting With The Man In The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change His Ways
And No Message Could Have Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place
Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make A Change
-Michael Jackson

PS:
This Saturday at CrossFit KoP, we are doing a special workout; "Lumberjack 20″ to honor the four members of a the CrossFit affiliate (CrossFit Lumberjack) that were killed in the shootings at Fort Hood.  Follow this link for more info or to donate. 

I will be doing the scaled version (I may need to scale the running down to walking or 200m, We'll see!):
20 Deadlifts (135lbs) /Run 400m
20 KB swings (1pood) /Run 400m
20 Overhead Squats (45lbs) /Run 400m
20 Burpees /Run 400m
20 Pullups/Run 400m
20 Box jumps (13")/Run 400m
20 DB Squat Cleans (15lbs each)/Run 400m